What a terrible sounding word: sloughing. Even spelling it I feel tainted, but it adequately expresses how I'm feeling lately.
I love to streamline and pare down things I own. While I don't enjoy the moving experience overall, I do like deciding what I really need and what I can give away, donate, or throw away. I get a sense of freedom with the less amount of "things" I own. Right now I have a pile of clothes just waiting to be donated to Goodwill and I'm mentally deciding what I can get rid of and what I actually need when I move in May (to wherever that may be). Sloughing unnecessary things from my arsenal of items is exciting to me.
In a likewise manner, asking forgiveness or repenting is a similar action. By apologizing and asking for forgiveness I am able to let go of the weight of guilt, anxiety, and sorrow that I may be carrying with me. As I stated in an earlier post, I rarely apologize unless it's sincere and today I apologized for how my earlier actions made my roommate feel. Apparently she had been holding in a lot of feelings and things, many of which were expressed tonight. My response? Well, at least now it's out in the open and everyone knows about it and we can stop tip-toeing around.
Apparently I had been doing some things that annoyed or bothered her and, that's okay and bound to happen when people live together, but just let me know what annoys you and I'll try to change what I'm doing or saying. Now I know and now I'll be more aware and try to change. I can't change unless you point out my flaws, so now I can add to my list of pending improvements.
On a lighter note, tomorrow I find out about Teach For America! You'll be the second to know...after me...who will be the first. See how I did that? Yea, I know. I'm a nerd, but I'm okay with that!
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