Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Arthritis, Trains, and Bad Weather...all in one!

Rheumatoid. That was the word on my mind when I woke up this morning. I was going to post a picture, but I really didn't see anything that anyone would find visually appealing. With a word like "rheumatoid" I wonder what I was dreaming about. I sure hope Adam isn't letting himself go.

I know it's the month of Thanksgiving and the holiday season is upon us, so I should be swept up in the holiday cheer with everyone else, but right now I'm just tired. While I am emotionally and intellectually tired, right now I'm mostly physically tired. Unfortunately, I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel that is any closer than two and a half weeks out. That's how much time I have left in my first semester being a "real" college instructor.

Oooooohhh! That sounded kinda cool and impressive -- and it is (I mean, sometimes I wondered if I'd make it through my Masters program). Honestly I do love my job and most  all of my students. Admittedly I've struggled liking some of them, but I'm happy to say I know all of their names, "problem" students have endeared themselves to me, and I'm excited to see what next semester's rascally bunch is going to throw my way.

Lately I've felt on edge, turbulent, and as though I've been spinning my wheels but not getting any traction. My mind has often thought of this picture, if you look closely you can see the man in the doorway. My sister has this on her wall and she has included the saying: Sometimes God calms the storm and sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms his child.

While I've always been a fan of turbulent weather -- particular on a beach or coastline somewhere -- I'm not sure if I'm as appreciative of it in my mind and life.

Right now I am hoping for a break in the storm, but I understand that it's going to rage for awhile longer. I just hope I can appreciate the lulls in the coming weeks and months and can find a port to drop anchor.